My birthday is coming up. So why am I having suicidal thoughts?
Every year, I get depressed when my birthday is just around the corner. I have no idea why this is. Last year I think I had suicidal thoughts around the time of my birthday, and this year I'm having suicidal thoughts again. I have nothing to be upset about right now; I work at a nice family restaurant, and I'm going to Big Bend state park, Texas in less than two weeks. The weather has been nice the last couple of days, too. These are all great things, and yet they still can't distract me from the sad/traumatic memories of my past. What can I do for myself? Will things get better in the following months?